lust of paper and silver

I know that getting a masters; PhD is the real deal. I'll have the cash-that's for sure. When I think about the cash, I feel that that is the cloud nine for me; but, on the other side, my social life...

Back in primary school I aspired to me a professor in Maths...I was a Mathematician way back before I graduated in KCSE with a clean D+. My papa got so mad but, deep within, I knew that there was a reason for it. He didn't want me to live in misery-survive rather than live, smile rather than laugh, lust for rather than love, or explore rather than experience.

Today I look at the professors, always in their offices, lecture halls, meetings. I get to campus at 8.00am and find them there, leave at 6.30pm and they are still there, merely to fulfil their thirst and hunger of some paper and silver coins.

Why let a profession over-ride my family obligation? I wonder if they got a little family time, time to catch up, laugh, joke or share the love...I bet that every other professor's love life is on the drains-all they have left is chasing after innocent students (sexually harassing them) and giving them grades earned for a game well played in the comfort of between the sheets.

I may not be sure on lots of stuff aboput life, but I deeply know that; I don't want to end up in Harvard or go for a doctorate --or even end up with such an educated man, lest I lose myself in my greedy lust of money.

by MJN

I'm Responsible

My lecturer used to say that Kenya and the Kenyans in particular will remain inpoverished for life as a result of being self cenred and mean spirited. He had been to the KPLC (Kenya Power and Lightining Comapny) to air his grievances about power disruption in his home. Other Kenyans on the queue weren't amused by his action, and demanded that he be asked to leave for wasting their time; or just make an official appointment.

Self-centerdness, we are either thinking only of ourselves or; blaming others for stuff they aren't responsible for.

This is exactly what happened to me recently. There has been this Dr. in campus who can't let his wifey be his one and only woman of his dreams. The guy is still going out there chasing after girls young enough to be his daughters. What's worse is that, these innocent girls are just but his students. Thanks heavens that so far, there hasn't been any reported cases of sex-grades trade.

I had always been cautious enough, never letting myself be in an enclosed and solitary environment with him; because I had heard rumors; and rumors have lots of truth in them. That was until I was in need, extremely in need and had noone to accompany me at the moment; and it was a very urgent matter.

Shocked, frightened, numb...I felt that way. I had had a similar feeling back as a young girl, way back in my Primary School. I had just realized that a certain male teacher had be weirdly stalking me...He walks over by my side,closely holds my waist over to his, I hashly pull him away, he tries to emphasize it, but I dramatically change position-funny enough, the guy doesn't look the least embarassed or sorry, he only asks me to hush!

Hush! That moment was worth making him lose his job he had so hard worked for, tear to pieces his two decade-old marriage...and so, I had to hush.

I tell it to this girl, a close girlfriend...of course I knew what she would do/react.

"When?"
"A few minutes ago..."
"You mean today...as in now? No wonder (pause)(gazes at me suspiciously) What were you expecting dressed like this, it's like you were going there to seduce him..."

Had I got raped or sexually abused (I had already been harassed), I bet that it would have all been my fault...


by MJN

Anonymous loving

Now that its almost...
After tomorrow
I'll see no more you

You don't take notice
But you are the reason
The reason why I live

Always hoping
You will see me
Take notice

I smile for you
To see my dimple
Which you never s

After tomorrow
I'll find another
But my love will always be

My forever love

NAMES AND THEIR MEANINGS

1. Kevin: Wyre, Sema
Timid, shy, girlish, sweet and charming

2. Mike: Tyson, Jagger, Jackson, George Michael
Hardcore badboys with lots of vices

3. Ty...: Tyra, Tyrese, Tyler Perry, Tyson Gaye...
Allroundedly famous

4. Robert: R. Kelly, B. Valentino, Bob Marley...
Musically talented

5. Esther: Esther of the Bible, Muthee, TPF2, Wahome, Arunga, Passaris...
Exceptionaly beautiful

6. Shaaban: Mchenga, Ndege, Sadique S...
Belong to the media world

7. Carol: Mutuko, Radull...
Vocally hyper-talented

8. Sean: Jay Z, Kingstone, Diddy, Paul...
Got issues with their ego(S)

9. Wayne: I, Wonder, Marshall...
Raggablessed

10. Mario: Cimarro, Wayans, Omarion, Mario...
Too handsome

11. Jennifer: Lopez, Aniston,Hudston...
Hot mamas

12. David: Beckham, Craig, TPF2, King D...
A lady's best accessory

13. Bill: Gates, Clinton, Billy Ocean...
A good man

14. Njoki: Ndung'u, Kaigai, Karuoya, Myself...
Phenomenal women

By MJN

Love from the Soul

When I met you
Thought you cute, chocolate and charming
Though didn't seem to notice me
Decided that it's wrong to fall for a guy at first sight


She told me you wanna hookup; with me
Didn't know what to say
Thought a yes would be kind of cheap
Though a no would break both our hearts


Wish you would do something
Coz what I feel, know and desire is sincere
Thought I could handle loneliness for a little longer
Though getting you off my mind, heart and soul is killing me


It's done, I did it, punished myself
Thinks that hope is still there; God willl bring us together
Though impossible, maybe it shall be; someday


In my heart though, there will always be that part
that only Man can rekindle

By Mary J. Njoki

Mi Amor

You've been searching for love
Blind dates, one night stands, hook ups

You still dying to love
An angel sent from above

You'll soon get that love
If you look a different way

Because I hold the key to your heart, body and soul

Mary J. Njoki

what if am a feminist?

God created man in His own image and likeness i.e. male and female. Midway, the Genesis story changes to potray his chauvinism which he had withheld all through, hence, twists the story into a brand new theory-that woman was created from man, a man's rib!


Did that rib contain some female hormones? The uterus, breasts, broadned hips...or was the rib's hormones resistant in man but dominant in females?


And now that man presumes to have all the power on earth; it's all under his finger tips-despite him thinking with one side of the brain while the other is so dump to comprehend a thing!!!


Sexuality-he thinks that sexual intercourse was created solely for him. Sex, is like the tongus...it has different taste senses and, whatever comes in contact with it , it alone knows and enjoys the ectasy. Why then would anyone blind another with the silly talk of that the food knows of the ectasy, and not the tongue???


Don't forget the toppest blindfold; that 'woman' comes from 'man', 'female' from 'male'... Take it my way, male comes from female in the sense that 'male' is a subtracted version in terms of spelling, pronunciation and conceptionizing, lacking a syllabe and in reality, malnourished in many different areas.


Any man thinks that he can take advantage of a woman and later on ditch her because, women are and always will make the greatest loosers. The big problem in men is that their have a weird ability to assume that women are as dump as they are in thinking, such that, they don't know what they want and like sheep, foolishngly follow. If a chic is into a casual relationship or a one-night stand, she'll go for it, and get what she wants. She is always guaranteed of what she wants. However, no man has the gurantee; he has to always remain hard unless a woman wants to smoothen him.


And you think that there are so many single moms coz they have been dumped! If a woman wants just a kid from a relationship, she'll go for it, and later on, leave the man. After all, fellow women are better in bed than men and, with the abundance emergence of sex toys, who needs a useless non-turn-on object????